Allone

Welcome to the castle of my aloneness

Where the walls are made of shame

I keep myself hidden away

Feeling all alone

I say it's to keep me safe

But really it's to push you away

I want to be separate from the world

To be myself without all the woes

Yet I can't seem to find myself

When all I feel are these thick walls

There are something about these walls

That don't feel like walls at all

I don't know what they are

But when I get close they just fall

They crash into the unknown

Sending ripples through my body

There is tingles in my hands

A softness in my chest

And a laugh escapes my lips

As if this was all there is

"I don't know!" I laugh

The walls fall one by one

"I don't know!!" I fall

In some sort of hysterical ecstasy

It's like the walls were made of me

Twisted in a confusing mystery

How could I not find myself

When I am all there is

I feel separate from it all

And yet interconnected all at once

I heard a wise one once say

"You were never alone"

How could I be?

when we are all one